TRUE

I reckon you don't notice that I see everything that's happening...
That just shows how much you don't know me...
I know I am always put in the corner, apart from everything...
But from that far end corner, I am able to thoroughly observe the whole picture..
BOLD and CLEAR~

So, I'm here to tell you to stop putting on those fake faces...
Because I know that behind those masks of smiles and sweet words
are ANNOYANCE and DISGUST~

I know not why you have to veil you true feelings...
Seriously, just lift the cover up and act like you feel...
As much as it hurts... I can take it like a mature adult...
Just be true!
Because seeing you putting up acts despite knowing your real heart.....


It wounds me deeper.................

Should I Make a Blogging Comeback?

It has been 10 months since I left this blog on hiatus...
I've tried to bring myself to post something but a lot of things keep coming in my way...
Now...
Being in the professional field, I've been burying myself with work that I almost forgot the one thing that I love doing most.. my passion, WRITING~~
There are lots of ideas in my mind right now and my fingers can't stop dancing gracefully once I touch the keyboard...
I'm wondering...
Should I make a blogging comeback?

Dear Chocolate........... from Yours Truly~

Dear

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for last night~


It was a nice long talk over a cup of

I was in utmost

to see you again after a long time~




Can't wait to meet you again this

Till then....

and

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P.S..............

CHOCOLATE Makes Me Happy!!!~

Thank you for making me smile right before I sleep~
I shall dream of sweet things tonight!~
(But I don't think I can even close my eyes for being this excited!~)

P/S: Your sweet and caring words just now really touched my heart~
Thank you~

I Miss.... I Miss... I Miss...

I miss playing with the snow in Plymouth!~



But most importantly.......

I miss you guys!!!!
Syaz, Nadhia & Fizah...


Syaz,
I miss the time when I ended up going into your room when I was actually dying to go to the toilet...

Nadhia,
I miss the time when I barged into your room to have a peek at what you bought online...

Fizah,
I miss the time when we had serious chats about our lives in your room...


Girls,
I miss the time when all of us shared stories while cooking in the super-small kitchen...
I miss the time when we watched movies while eating dinner in the common room...
I miss the time when we YMed eventhough our rooms were just steps away from each other...
I miss the time when we stayed all night preparing for open houses...
I miss the time when we went shopping together at the city centre...
I miss the time when we had our rock kapak karaoke session...
I miss the time when we danced poco-poco together...
I miss the time when we travelled around UK and Europe together...
I miss the time when we spent hours talking about everything and anything under the sun...

but most importanly,

I just miss the time when we had each other by our sides...

Two years spent living with you guys has been one of the most meaningful, beautiful and unforgettable moments of my life~

Syaz, Nadhia & Fizah...
I miss you guys soooooo soooooo much!!!
Let's hang out together again sometimes!~

How I Spent My 23rd Birthday... Plus a Brownies Recipe!!

I'm back my fellow subjects! LOL! Kidding~ Had to be apart from my blog because my lappy had to undergo a massive repair! So, while I was silent from this blogging world, a lot people asked me to post an entry about my birthday but I was super lazy to do so (with a very valid reason may I say!). Now that I'm finally online..... let me enlighten you guys with the 'fabulous' celebration I did for my birthday which was....... N.O.T.H.I.N.G!!! Yup! Nothing!~


So, here's the whole story... On 16th December 2010, a day after JYJ's Xiah Junsu's 24th birthday (ceyh.. nak sebut gak tu.. hihi) I celebrated my 23rd birthday. And to be honest with all of you, that has got to be the most boring-est (grammar exception here please.. lol) birthday I'd ever spent in my life! Dad's in Penang for a hearing (I don't know why these people pandai sangat asked my dad pi dengar hearing kat mahkamah Penang sedangkan he works in Ipoh High Court!), Mum had to work.... jaga SPM and my 2 younger sisters were too busy doing their own stuffs to celebrate their kononnye beloved sister punye birthday.. (bertuah betol! I jadi beloved sis bile belanja u all shopping dgn tgk wayang je ek?).


But let's sweep this issue aside. Birthdays were never a big thing in my family anyways (nak sedapkan hati je ni)... So I don't really give a damn actually.. Especially since my friends threw me a birthday party in 2008 back in the UK and last year I had an awesome time spending my birthday with my midnight shifts colleagues in Royal Mail UK!!! So not doing anything for my birthday this year is nothing big! (Uisy.. terasa sangat loser menulis perenggan ini~ Big 'L' to the forehead peeps! LOL!)


So, to merely spend my boring birthday by myself, I decided to bake myself a birthday brownies! (OMG! I feel like a double loser writing this.. double big 'L' to your foreheads! Okay not your foreheads.. MY forehead! Rofl!). I've tried many brownies recipes before, but this has been my favourite so far and I've baked this a few times already! So peeps, here I am to share the recipe with you guys!~

The ingredients:

1 1/2 cups of sugar
200gm of melted dark cooking chocolate
(I suggest you spend more on this because more expensive dark cooking chocolate i.e Van Houten or Hershey's make your brownies taste better.. cheap ones are not nice!)
1 cup of vegetable oil
(can also use sunflower oil or canola oil for substitutes.. in my case, I used sunflower + canola oil.. please don't use normal cooking oil because they kinda smell)
2 tsp of vanilla essence
4 eggs
1 3/4 cups of flour (sift)
1 tsp baking powder


The methods:

Combine sugar, eggs, oil and vanilla essence in a mixing bowl. They will look like this after whisk...

Add melted chocolate and mix well.

Mix together flour and baking powder and add them to the chocolate mixture.

Grease and line a 20cm square cake tin and pour the mixture in. Bake for 40 minutes under a 180 degree Celsius temperature.


And this is how it will look like. Make sure to cool it down before serving~

To decorate, you can sprinkle some icing sugar on top of it or you can also make a chocolate glaze for topping. Another tip for making chocolate glaze, besides doing a normal double boiling method, add 2 tsp of vegetable oil to the chocolate to make the glaze look shinier and more beautiful + appetizing!

There you go! I never thought I had many cooking tips to share in the first place.. LOL! Hope you enjoy trying this recipe and if you do, please do respond to this entry and tell me how do you do! Maybe you can share with me your own brownies recipes~


And back to business.. this was how I spent my birthday. Nothing interesting really... but the next day, we went to KL and my dad paid for the whole family to do facial!!!! (Yup, my dad pun join skali!) Yeay!! Go DAD!!!! And to make it more awesome, instead of going to a spa, the facial was done at my aunt's home! Poor that lady had to stay until late evening.. Haha.. Pictures of the facial session are with my cousin and I have no intention at all to upload them here because trust me, all of us looked super funny!


I guess that's all for now~~ Happy 2011 and don't forget to enjoy and cherish every single moment of your life!! Chiao~

I Dreamt of ..........

I dreamt of you last night....
It was such a sweet dream that I wished it wouldn't end....... but it did~
Which brings me back to the reality that I have forgotten exists...
I guess letting go isn't easy...
So please do me a favour... please......disappear~